Monday, August 15, 2011

SPD

just another one of those days.
the days where my "spirited child" is having a less than stellar time taking in everything around him.
one of those days when the walls are his personal trampolines and his hyper gauge is in the extreme category.
one of those days when everything around him feels as though it's crumbling.
one of those days he feels as though im not proud of him.
internalizing every piece of information differently than you or i.

is he bipolar?
no.

adhd?
no.


well, what is it?

why is my child ranging from raging lunatic to the energizer bunny in 0 to 30.
every situation ending in turmoil.
making impulsive decisions.
hurting him or himself.

sensory processing disorder.

my fear since becoming a mother has been this.
a stigma.
a label.

i am not a failure, nor did i cause this.
this is my child.
this is kohen.

spirited.
loving.
genius.
unique.
different.

every bit of the word, amazing.

i do not have all of my facts, nor do i know where to go from here.
only up.
i do know that from now on, he has the best possible chance at life.
to strive,
to thrive,
and excel in everything he'll do,
only differently.

because he's kohen, unique.



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